Geram

Ya Allah...

tolong buat aku bersabar,

buat aku bisa menahan emosi ini...

Astaghfirullahalazim...

memang kesabaran hati ini sedang di uji..

betapa sakitnya hati ini..

sabar...sabar...

tapi,

sekarang terasa sangat

GERAAAAMMMM!!!

kenapa yaah terlalu susah untuk meminta sesuatu yg sememangnya itu hak kita,

dan kewajiban mereka untuk memenuhinya..

Memang BEGO,

menyakitkan hati berurusan dengan pejabat KUO neh,

bisa2nya aku yang malah disalahkan karena pintu kamar rusak,

ya Allah...tolong lah...

Ngapain juga aku ngerusakin pintu kamar sendiri kalau hanya akan menyusahkan diri sendiri, BEGO...BEGO..arghhh...

pengen nangis saat itu juga rasanya,

seharusnya ditanya dulu kek kenapa pintunya bisa jadi rusak,

aku bukan sengaja mo ngerusakin tuh pintu,

tapi karena pintu kamar nggak bisa dibuka dan kami (aku n erin) terkunci didalam n nisa berada diluar, makanya kami berusaha bagaimana caranya agar bisa membuka tuh pintu..

Capek...tau nggak, malam2 orang pada tidur,

kami malah nyungkil2, ngedobrak pintu biar terbuka..

haish...n paginya lapor ke pejabat malah dibilang kek gitu..

sabar...sabar...

Akhirnya kami memperbaiki pintu itu dengan alternatif sendiri,

menggunakan palang pintu (selak pintu),

dan untuk bagian luar menggunakan kunci gembok..

lagi2 tangan sakit membuat pengerjaan pintu pada malam hari..

Foto perbaikan pintu insya Allah akan di masukkan pada post selanjutnya,

soalnya sekarang aku udah mau tidur,

malas mau mem-bluetooth foto dari hp..hehe..

What I feel

What I feel right now?

it's difficult to explain, even my self not sure what i thinking about..

I just feel...like something burning in my heart,

and it's so hurt..

something that i don't understand how to handle it..

Sometimes i wanna run, far away..

but...i can't...

i keep thinking about it..

what should i do?

T_T

I read some translation part in lyric "you're beautiful ost" that i think can represent my feeling..

All the song I like,

how sad..

What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart...
~ What Should I Do-Jang Geun Suk ~

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore, and that you’re not here anymore...
~ Without words-Park Shin Hye ~

Even if you don’t look at me
Even if I say it a thousand times, you don’t know
Even if I wait at the same spot, you don’t know
My foolish love that simply looks at you like an idiot
You don’t know, No matter what...
~ My Heart Is Cursing-Kim Dong Wook ~

Without a word, tears starts falling down
Without a word, my heart is broken
Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me..
~ Without words-Park Shin Hye ~

I didn’t think it was love, I told myself it wasn’t love
I deceived myself, but my heart kept calling your name
I take one step towards you, push you one step away
Each time, you grow in my heart...
~ As Ever-A.N.Jell ~

I hope, i will be better soon..

Insya Allah..

Sorry for being weak and 'Jiwang'..

sorry if i'm too exagerate in expressing my feeling,

Ya Allah, please forgive me..

Make me strong and able to accept your decision..

Make me love someone just because I love you..